I am writing this in the pages of my blog so that truth prevails itself should anything happen. I am a devout believer in the power of love. How it can move the world and breathe into life. However, my mind still wanders into the morbid side of it. The love that can give life can also kill you. There are always two sides of the same coin.
Although my head swoons with love, my heart rejects it every time. The inability to accept the fact that love is there makes my heart heavy with the intensity that I feel like leaving it and running away. Yes I am a walking contradiction. My biggest fear is falling in love.
I cast a spell on myself. I set an invisible wall around me. Remember the circle I was talking about? Yes. I realize that this can be a never ending cycle. As I sat staring at the ceiling and locked in my room, I started to think. Life doesn’t stop for me. Not just yet. Although I am feeling a wee bit pessimistic, I refuse to sink into the black hole. I stood up and I started writing everything that I want to write. The power of me lies in my word and my story. I will never ever stop writing.
He who came broke all the barriers without breaking an entry. He who came out of nowhere actually never leaves my memory. I am just shocked with the intense and deep emotions that I am feeling. A declaration has been made and I have admitted my biggest fear in life. With the admittance, I am accepting love as it is. I am embracing all the uncertainties and risks that come with it. I live by the notion that if it is meant to be then it is meant to be and if it is not then God must have other plans for me. I may wait or I may go.
Here I am embracing love for another. One of life’s greatest challenges after finding happiness with oneself. Acceptance and hope is the key to everything. As of other things in life, I don’t have that high of expectation just yet. Embracing what life has to offer is not easy but I am brave enough to do this now. Everything happens for a reason and I will keep on living my journey in life. I will not hide nor will I run.
