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Friday, November 21, 2008

Contrary niceties

And then there is this girl who likes to delve into the sea of emotions and intuitions. Her thoughts flow straight to her fingers effortlessly. She stands by the notion that writing is a struggle against silence. She understands perfectly the power of words. Even a simple act of offering a kind word can have the power to change lives in positive and profound ways. Her dreams tell her to wake up and see the truth behind the rose tinted glasses. A déjà vu that sweeps just like the wind.

She met a boy once who is everything that she is and has a positive effect on her. But he is far across the ocean, across the sea and on the other side of the world. She wonders why he is still on her mind and why she just cannot shake it off. It is sticking like a cobweb in her head. She hates this part right here. Anata to no kyori ga tooku naru hodoni.

And about this girl, she has a humongous personality and very adventurous. An absolute Aries with a dash of Taurus, sprinkled with crazyness, a bubbly personality and sometimes bi-polar. Add some little miss giggle and a boyish persona. Voila! A perfect description of her in a cupcake. Oh and she absolutely loves to eat and wears her heart on her sleeves.

Her life is full with friends and family. There is never a day that she ever felt like she is ever alone. And wherever she goes, there will always be one good friend by her side. A beautiful gift from God, she must agree. A friend to guide her through and learn life lessons together.

Her passion lies in writing, martial arts and squash. She does kickboxing, plays the drum, loves cats, learnt Japanese, likes to go to the batting cage and absolutely loves the sun, the sand and the sea. She is also a double jointed freak and can bend her thumb upside down. She loves music and she loves singing. She is the kind of person who wants to do everything in the world. Her next mission is to take up diving. Her next travel mission is to visit all the temples in Asia starting with Angkor Wat next year. To her, life should be full and should always move with time. Love however would always remain timeless.

At the present moment as we speak, she lights her coloured cigarette (it's the yellow one today and the pink one was yesterday) and ponders upon her thoughts and her actions. She is always waiting and waiting. Only time will tell, she is thinking. As she sat on the stairs puffing her cigarette like she always does every day, she stares into the blank spaces.

Her mind is running but she is numb. She is not unhappy but she is not entirely happy. Neither is she depressed nor down. She cannot be bothered to recall her mystified memories. She is just as blank as a white canvass. It is like she is living in an auto pilot mode every day. Every morning, every night, every day, every hour and every second matters to her. She realizes that she is not the same person as she was before. In an entirely good way, though. Usually it was just easy to shut down from the world and put on her half mask of life.

Armed with a pocket full of sunshine and a sunny disposition, she decided to face the world head on. She wants to live her life with integrity now. Not because of somebody or anybody but because she believes that God would only present the situation in life to a person because He knows that the person is strong enough to go through it. She also understands the power of the mind. The secret of life as she unfolds is that your thoughts and feelings create your reality. She has learnt to smile in adversity.

A contrary niceties is what she is writing today.