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My latest findings of human behaviour last weekend were rather an amusing one. Is that even the correct word? Amusing? Well rather, I find it quite exasperating. For instance, I know of this girl who created a lot of commotion around her life that people took a step back from her. Apart from that she does not have anything against the world.

Being the diplomatic ol' me, I am friends with everyone. I do not discriminate people based on what people tell me of what the person did to them but then again the people who tells me this must also be worthy and credible. Most of the time, those people who talks about people have their own issue anyway.

Again, if you are my friend you should know that I prefer to stay away from gossiping about anyone. I will just be like yeah yeah or oh ye ke and thats it, I refuse to comment any further. Mind you yeah if you get on my bad side I will continuously ramble on you like nobody's business. My sarcasm will be at the upmost level.

Back to the weekend findings. And so people were looking at me and questioning me on why was I out with this particular person? For one, I dont care about what people say about this person or any other person that i am friends with unless these people get on my bad side. Number two, why do i need to follow the crowd and stick to the limit that they set in order for you to be accepted in "their" circle. Number three, I will continue to be friends with whomever as long as they dont step on my toes. Number four, all of you who were scowling and questioning are mostly acquaintances and konon nye in the right circle. Geez man wake up.

Oh and another thing, why did i get the scowling as well from these acquaintances again?? I am definitely not the person's soldier and I have like what, ten sets of friends apart from the person and the friends i have hang out with these acquaintances as well. Again i remind you I am taking a one women stand.

Do not stereotype me and view me as the army that march with one sound. Dude, can you not be so oblivious to the world. I am just happy to be friends with any one at all so if you have issues with one another you better leave me out of it.

Woohoo!

Its been a while since i jot something in here..well, looking back at all my writings I suppose many things have changed in my life. I am what they call a very super friendly girl but for everyone who knows me really well they would know that the friendliness is only on the outside. Inside I am the Queen of Ice. You are good enough if you can get near me and and you are far more better if I can hold your hand. Like my brother was saying, I have this circle that i build around me.Sort of like a protective wall. Not everyone can step inside that circle without me wincing or twitching an eye or just being agitated. And true enough if anyone tries to approach me they can feel the wall in front of me. Well yeah of course Im a happy go lucky whatever person but its not really easy for me to let people in. This scenario that i have just described may only apply to guys i suppose. No problems with girls except that i dont have that many girlfriends and the ones i have now are all gems and diamonds. Meaning that they are good friends and they mean a lot to me.

Looking back as well, i could not believe how positive i can be especially when i talked about my ex boyfriend. haha. Yes am still hurt hence the super friendly phase. But then again, am not just flirting with everyone. Unfortunately, i always fall for complicated guys. Haha again. Well thats life i guess. You live and you learn. Learning to forgive someone is far more difficult than you can imagine.

Finally, before i close the curtain I have to say that life has been good since the "break up". I secured a new job. Landed where i wanted to be. Took up new challenges. Part time castings and auditions going well hence learning a lot more.Pretty occupied with friends and family.Sometimes i dont even have enough time to allocate to everyone. I love being alone sometimes. Im finding new hobby to do. Well its about time i go through the list of the things that I want to do in life anyway.

A good friend of mine said to me last weekend : yeah you look happy on the outside but i know you are feeling as if there is something missing in you. Maybe she is right because she knows me so well. But hey, a girl need to survive in this world right..All in all, life is about survival and i am merely doing everything to survive. Be it whether i have to wear a mask or not. You be the judge whether I am masking it or not..