Woohoo!

Its been a while since i jot something in here..well, looking back at all my writings I suppose many things have changed in my life. I am what they call a very super friendly girl but for everyone who knows me really well they would know that the friendliness is only on the outside. Inside I am the Queen of Ice. You are good enough if you can get near me and and you are far more better if I can hold your hand. Like my brother was saying, I have this circle that i build around me.Sort of like a protective wall. Not everyone can step inside that circle without me wincing or twitching an eye or just being agitated. And true enough if anyone tries to approach me they can feel the wall in front of me. Well yeah of course Im a happy go lucky whatever person but its not really easy for me to let people in. This scenario that i have just described may only apply to guys i suppose. No problems with girls except that i dont have that many girlfriends and the ones i have now are all gems and diamonds. Meaning that they are good friends and they mean a lot to me.

Looking back as well, i could not believe how positive i can be especially when i talked about my ex boyfriend. haha. Yes am still hurt hence the super friendly phase. But then again, am not just flirting with everyone. Unfortunately, i always fall for complicated guys. Haha again. Well thats life i guess. You live and you learn. Learning to forgive someone is far more difficult than you can imagine.

Finally, before i close the curtain I have to say that life has been good since the "break up". I secured a new job. Landed where i wanted to be. Took up new challenges. Part time castings and auditions going well hence learning a lot more.Pretty occupied with friends and family.Sometimes i dont even have enough time to allocate to everyone. I love being alone sometimes. Im finding new hobby to do. Well its about time i go through the list of the things that I want to do in life anyway.

A good friend of mine said to me last weekend : yeah you look happy on the outside but i know you are feeling as if there is something missing in you. Maybe she is right because she knows me so well. But hey, a girl need to survive in this world right..All in all, life is about survival and i am merely doing everything to survive. Be it whether i have to wear a mask or not. You be the judge whether I am masking it or not..