Only time can tell..

When hope melts into despair that is when you will see a light at the end of the tunnel. To have and to hold contradicts with to leave and to let go. I am in two places at one time right this instance. My heart stood still although time passes by so quickly. Addiction to a person is the sweetest drug ever. I am talking in riddles again to conceal my innermost feelings. How do you explain to yourself when you have no commitments but you find yourself committed to one person unintentionally? It is like you contemplate to commit but you have actually already committed yourself but you just don’t realize it. Denial could be the key word but precaution is another word that can justify your denial. Does love have to be official? Does love need any confirmation? Life should move with time. Love should be timeless.

I have the tendency to run way every time I fall in love, which is not a lot as I don’t fall in love that easily. To me love is risky. A risk that I am not willing to take most of the time. I can break planks and stuff but I could never put my heart at risk. My hands can be bruised and broken but my heart cannot be bled. What would you do when like turns to love? Do you say it out loud or do you just keep it inside?

I can say everything and anything to make you run or I can just simply go away. But I am still here with my feet planted firmly where I am, embracing the risks and uncertainties that come with it. I have not put a high expectation on myself for a long time hence the feeling of bliss is still in me. I want to be with you without calculating the time. I am spending time with you because time is not to be wasted.

When life takes an unexpected turn that is where you will be stuck with managing yourself and the people around you. To be pure or to conceal the dramatic life changing situation is a choice that only you can make. Without fail, things always happen for a reason. You will always wonder why did you meet this person and that person at a specific point in time but you can never know why. People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I am already grateful enough even if you are here for a reason and a season but I hope you are here for a lifetime.