Melodrama

In all this life that we have, little do we realise that it can all change in a second. Something new can start or something profound can just end. The memories you have, some of it may have been forgotten. Painful memories are often hard to forget and will always linger deep within. Pain is what people remember most rather than fond memories.

Soul threads from the heart connect you with others. See, i believe in soul thread. The more significant the person is the stronger the connection and the number of soul threads connected. We can choose to cut all of the thread to totally disconnect from that person. Or we can choose to only cut some and probably leave one or two connected. It is a degree of separation that you can choose to have, in spirit. To separate the mind and the heart is two different thing. You can choose to erase it from your mind but to detach the heart, one must cut off the threads.

I have cut some strings and all of it depending on the degree of pain these people have inflicted upon me. However, one or two still remains as part of me. That when I see them, they can feel the connection to me as well. Not as strong as before as most of it has been cut off but still there is still some left hanging. There are probably one or two people who have been out of touch but still in touch through memories. They feel it too whenever they see me.

Those people who i have cut off all of the strings would be significantly out of my life or memories. That when i see them, i virtually see nothing. The memories have been deleted including past feelings, fond memories or how we started or met. They feel the detachment too whenever they see me.

Since we wouldn't know how our lives will be in the future, there is probably a reason for this detachment and attachment. Our lives will always be intertwined with someone whether you realise it or not..

RAMADHAN KAREEM

This blog is inspired by some recent tweets, fb posts and whatsapp messages from family and friends and I too feel strongly about this so here goes..

"Dear Family and Friends, know the days of this world are short and days of the hereafter are longer. No matter how much the person does of the good deeds in this life, he/she will benefit from it in the hereafter which has no end."

Ramadhan is the month to seek blessings, goodness, obedience, learnings and teachings of Islam. Most importantly, Ramadhan is a month to achieve piety.

It is not about food or buka puasa at all instead it is more about humility, controlling desires and connecting to God.  The intention is to be sincere, grateful, controlling anger, bad thoughts and words in order to achieve the ultimate goal – piety.

In spiritual terminology, piety is a virtue that can mean religious devotion, spirituality, or a combination of both.

In a google search, piety is defined as follows:

“Noun 1.   1.The quality of being religious or reverent. 2.   2. The quality of being dutiful.”

Ramadhan entails fasting.  As a dutiful Muslims, we are required to fast for the whole month. Now what is fasting? Wikipedia says:

“Fasting is primarily an act of willing abstention from all food, drink, or both, for a period of time. An absolute fast is normally defined as abstinence from all food and liquid for a defined period, usually a single day (24 hours), or several days. Other fasts may be only partially restrictive, limiting particular foods or substance. The fast may also be intermittent in nature. Fasting practices may preclude sexual intercourse and other activities as well as food.”

Now, the true definition for fasting in Islam is abstinence from all, food, drink and sensuous activity. Basically nothing can pass through the body cavities including ear and nose. We don’t do intermitten fasting during Ramadhan nor do we fast for the whole day (24 hours).  Our body can still function properly and it gives our digestive system a rest. Women is forbidden to fast when they have their period and the number of days lost can be replaced post Ramadhan at anytime. Also, people who are unable to fast due to sickness or need to breastfeed will also be given a leeway from fasting but will need to replace it post Ramadhan as well.

As a Muslim, fasting is a choice you make despite your fridge and cabinets are full of food. You choose not to eat out of sincerity and faith to God.

We should all be reminded that the month of Ramadhan should not be reduced to a “food festival”. In fact, we should eat less and not be wasteful. This is when we should delve into the lives of fakir miskin. That some less unfortunate people only get two meals a day, if they are lucky, and they really have to withstand their hunger. For those people, This IS their daily lives whereas we, only have to fast for a month.

An aunt who volunteers through Pertiwi saw that many unfortunate people lined up for a meal be it young or old, regardless sick or weak, it is still worth it to queue for a meal. A meal my friend T__T

Imagine how we feel when someone who is not fasting eating in front of us lavishly while we are fasting. Imagine how those people feel when we eat lavishly and flaunting in front of them in all the 11 months in a year.

Hence, let us immerse ourselves in the true spirit of Ramadhan. Fasting is a break from 11 months of worldly selfish pursuits, a chance to cleanse one’s heart. It just doesn’t make sense to fast all day but only to break fast with a table full of food and eat till you drop. One, this will put a pressure on our digestive system and two, this eat till you drop thing just beats the whole concept of fasting. Our body and soul should be detoxifying the whole of this month not otherwise. We should feel cleansed. We should eat less and feed the needy – the orphans, the Bangladesh, the Indonesian workers, the homeless and the refugees. This is particularly magnified during Ramadhan but feeding the needy should be a constant act all year round.

May you have a blessed Ramadhan and may Allah grant us all full barakah. 

Selamat berpuasa.

where should i blog??

I am still indecisive whether to stay in blogger or move to wordpress...The thing is i can access wordpress from the office but then i have always been blogging here since like forever. I kinda like my new template now after changing it soo many  times. Oh well, i'll probably blog on both depending on my mood hahah :p

The thing is, my poetic justice is long gone. Swallowed by the busyness of life. My thoughts are shredded with daily chores for self and home. No time for daydreaming of words. I miss those days where i would have some thoughts and words floating through my mind. Endless time of memorising lyrics. Ideas will be streaming in every now and then. 

In terms of work i have been quite lucky though. So far i have a transaction to close every year since i started working in the investment banking industry. Alhamdulillah. My progress has been good but i still have to strive hard for the SC license. Which is a requirement. I should've waited for it when i was in RHB Invest where i was exempted from taking the exam but nooo i had to go to KFH. Thinking that i would be in the islamic banking side the rest of my life, i forgot completely about the license. And now i have to sit for the bloody tough exam "-_____-"

In terms of health, it has been improving tremendously since last year. I am reverting back to my old weight. I currently weigh about 53-54 kg. Trying to get down to 50-51kg still. I have included habbatus sawda, virgin coconut oil and green juice as part of my supplement daily. I am able to bend my left leg now however i still cannot do duduk antara dua sujud because my thigh and knee still feels tight. Think i still have to see the doctor for that. 

Now, i loooove my green juice! Actually its not juice la its like a blended greens..heheh

My normal ingredients would be:

1) Green apple
2) cucumber / zuccini
3) celery (its a must!)
4) lime and/or lemon
5) a bit of ginger
6) spinach or kailan or whatever green leaves i can find
7) fresh turmeric (not all the time depending on my mood or tummy. Turmeric is really good to quell tummy discomfort actually). 

I drink it every morning and it feels so refreshing. You'll get acquinted to the taste after some time, trust me. If i am pressed for time i will have GNC's powdered green juice. The taste is really yucky (imagine wheatgrass, kelp and spinach smelling powder +__+) so i normally add a bit of ribena to it. Nothing beats freshly blended or juiced greens though.

Alright, thats enough update for today. Hopefully i will continue to blog regularly from now on..hehe

Ciao ^__^

After a long hiatus.....

The cat is back again..! Well i am just so lazy to blog these days because:

1) I cant access my blogger.com account from office. The IT set some restrictions so i am always logging out whenever i want to enter the page -___-

2) I have been pretty busy executing deal and thankfully issuance is today yay :D

3) I cant be bothered to edit my old blog posts imported from blogger.com manually in wordpress. Its an eyesore but i think i just have to live with it. Not gonna spend hours editing it na ah  +__+

4) I have been adamant on losing weight and maintaining it. Most of my free time (which i dont have a lot) is usually dedicated to Jillian Michaels exercise videos. I love her workouts. My body feels stronger with her 3-2-1 circuit training method. 3 minutes strength 2 minutes cardio and 1 minute abs.

Here are 3 of my favourite:

5) Also, been fasting at least twice a week to ganti puasa and also trying to do the 2 day fasting method of consuming only 500 cal per day for two days. So far i have only succeeded in consuming 700 cal a day the lowest. Dont think i can do 500 cal a day lah. Die..

So all in all i've ganti puasa in total 9 days. I have about 34 days left to ganti as i have not been diligently ganti-ing my puasa for the past 7 years. Heh.. The fidyah i have to pay is getting higher every year so after the next ramadhan, i will continue with my 2 days a week of puasa.

Further updates, i have been ill - affected by the horrible horrible haze last week. Damn dusty smoke smelling haze. Even visibility was extremely poor and no sunlight! Must remind self to buy a box of masks during normal days to keep for hazy days. If not mask would just simply sold out or sold at the double the price.